Coffee doesnt seem do do the same thing it used to for me anymore. I suppose that is when you know you've crossed the line into addiction. Maybe coffee beans are less potent when harvested around finals week? I realized today that I only have 22 days till my friends graduate, and I will be on a plane headed for S. Asia again. (I recieved my ticket in the mail yesterday!) So any of you who have committed to pray for me... I need to take you up on that.
Feelings about returning seem to evade me. Perhaps I am just on survival mode for the present, and haven't really been able to process anything. One thing I have learned is that stress is not from the Lord. It comes from my striving to be sucessful in whatever the venture, whether that be an internship in S. Asia, or making good grades, or building good friendships, or increasing financial stability. God is honored when I love and obey Him, whether I succede in my other ambitions or not, and ultimately the goal of my life is not success in these secondary things. So I am committed to let my soul find rest in God.
If you have the heart to pray for me, pray that I will obey and love my Lord all the way through these caffine saturated weeks, and ask Him to take care of me in the secondary categories of life.
Thanks beloved.
